Two of my biggest flaws is letting "friends" go and then taking them back, it's especially hard when I have had so many years invested in them knowing doggone well the season has ended times two. I have to understand and accept that not everyone is supposed to stay in my life forever and that it is totally OK to let them go. As we evolve, mature, and blessings start to rain in on our lives it's hard for some people to accept the elevation because of where they may be in life. That's not our fault and not everyone who drops out of our lives is a loss. I'm looking at it as God removing junk to make room for more meaningful relationships, almost like a blessing in disguise. 15 +years of a friendship ended because of not having enough time, not making time for her or choosing my husband and son over her. I caught myself feeling bad then I looked at my son looked around in my nice big home and literally said to myself "wtf" my main concern is making time for my son and my husband. I rather focus on being a good mother and wife than a good friend! Being a new mother, and wife takes time getting used to. Learning that it's not about me me anymore and about we. Also being a full time worker it is extremely hard trying to make time for my husband let alone time for friends but i make sure to text every now and then to show them I'm still alive and to check on their well being but unfortunately it's not enough and I can't please everyone. I'm at the point where my 30 year old ass can give less than 100 dams about losing people. I don't care about people talking about me, their perception of me. I just don't care anymore. I have so many dope beautiful friends who unconditionally love me and understand how different things are now that I am in a new chapter in my life. I have vowed to focus on the real ones in my life. I'm going places, my future is bright, and I have a lot of positive things happening that I don't discuss, it's just really too bad some folk I grew up with will experience it from a far. *Kanye Shrug* toodaloo 👋🏾